ちび明ぶろく

Last few years ago, I came KL alone. I chose an engineering course. Maybe I just want to challenge myself. I don’t know.

This few years, I can’t say that I’m not happy. I’m quite happy at the diploma that time. I got good friends in college, got buddy, got friends concern. I felt very warm and lucky at that time.

My gang, was disband when we finished two years diploma course. Some of us study in UCSI, some continued studied in college, and some went to oversea, some start working. Only few of us continued in UTAR.

At the beginning, I really felt very regret to continue my studied in UTAR. But, this is the way I chose. Nobody force me. I told myself- this the way I chose, I need continue to walk till the end. There is no reason to say regret.

The life in college, I got a lot memorize, happiness. I try to be happy in school. I try and try. I’m not unhappy; I just didn’t feel any happiness in UTAR.

I try to join the new friends in UTAR, but I fail to do it. I totally cannot join them. Maybe I’m the one got problem. But I still cannot close with the people who got attitude problem. I cannot force myself. I only join my friends who I knew them in diploma that time. When they “disturb” me, I didn’t angry; I will think that at least they still know I’m their friend.

This few years, I studied in UTAR, but I joint my outside friends to have fun, to do the crazy thing most of time. I felt that I’m lucky because got worked some part time job. I knew some new friends. Else, I think I will with a guy that I don’t like. Why? Reason-I’m the person cannot be too lonely. I need some concern from friend, or some care from them.

I’m the person who very shy to ask helps from friends. I scared they will think that I “used” them. Sometime, I really need help, but I never ask from people. I do it own. Only when people offer me, then I accept (sometime only).

The friends I knew when I work in FOS, such a “steady” friends. I’m very lucky can be friend with them… also, my secondary friends. Never lost contact… but I’m the one always never contact them…:-P

P/S: sorry la my friends. I never forget you guy o…

Cannot say in UTAR, I totally didn’t get know any new friends. They are good or not I don’t know because I never close with them. But I can feel that they are friendly. I didn’t join them because I’m too shy.

This is my final years in UTAR, I’m very very happy. Why? Reason is I’ll graduate soon if no accident. I asked myself, will my friends in UTAR will continue contact me in the future… Don’t know. But now so high tech, sure everyone used MSN to chat la…

Sure still got contact one right???

Nobody knows who I really am

I never felt this empty before

And if I ever need someone to come along,

Whose gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate

The waves keep on coming and we can’t escape

But if we ever get lost on our way

The waves would guide you through another day

dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai

kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu

asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am

Maybe they just don’t give a damn

But if I ever need someone to come along

I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru

tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And every time I see your face

The ocean heaves up to my heart

You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon

I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore

When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am

I never thought I’d feel this way towards you

And if you ever need someone to come along,

I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo

tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu

asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face

The ocean heaves up to my heart

You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon

I can see the shore

Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo

Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne

This is a song that I feet is suitable to me…

When I listen this song, I feel it is taking bout me…

japanese song is more suitable to me even sometime i don understand, but i can feel it. but chinese song won’t like that. i understand, but i totally won’t feel touching or what.

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